Ok so I have been wondering about this for a while and how people prophecy or tell the future, it camme to me with the idea of self fulfilling prophecy, with the question when I doubted Jesus many times before, how he did things in order to fulfill the prophecy, so were the prophecies made because he would do them? or would he do them because prophecies were made? Anyways so this kinds of stuff happens all the time, whhen you make someone feel stupid and so they become stupid whenever they are around you, you can never really tell what causes what in this reality or if it even the laws of causality flows forward with time. So thinking about this made me think if the laws of causality are even reliable, I mean we all believe in them and we all use them, right now I am saying that they only work because we believe them, but that implies that they work by the cause of us believing in them; because=by the cause of, so we use the laws of causality to explain many things in the world. I think they work only because we believe in them but what if thats not true? What if everything that happens depends on somethinng else, something that seems completely unconnected and irrelevant, like a wind. And everything, just happens...
Ok so today, it is Sabbath, remember (mother), (son), (daughter), (the relative), anyways so son was yapping like he does alot, and mom was telling him to shut shut shut it, and frustration, and then they hushed, and then she laughed, I wondered why and it turns out that she was laughing because it was (her husband) made her laugh, so I thought about open mind and closed mind in terms of infatuation and that made me remember a memory, of oh right in senior highschool I think, and I was in love with,, ugh the short girl with the magenta sweater I for got her name, oh right, dark skin really thick glasses, I was infatuatued but so I felt bad and so I thought I could be happy, but then there are things of when I think about her that make me sad or uneasy mad, and so I could be happy and in love, or happy and not care about her, I could not care about her so I can be happy, or maybe just ignore. The point is that I want to think about infatuation and how and what cases affect the open or closed mind.
Dear diary,
your name here says:
yo
Q-Bert says:
What happen??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
it was tight, it was a house concert.. so it was small, not that many people, but that didnt stop me from crowed surfing...
Q-Bert says:
Your sick... Thats tight.... Wasn't that band like famous??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
yes dude... its Misfits!!, allan? with the face logo.. I think they might be from around here so they stop by or something
its about the only rock Ive seen in around here... every thing else sucks... even more at least
Q-Bert says:
Thats Cool.... Was their food?
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
hell no.. I would have puked it out
... there was beer... but I didnt need any,,, and I smacked it out of peoples hand with my dancing,,, just for fun lol
Q-Bert says:
What kind of music are around their?
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
its mostly dances.. annd everybody here tends to prefer hiphop and stuff... barely any metal heads... I know of only one other..
Q-Bert says:
Yea i know your fat lol
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
lol waaaat?fat?
Q-Bert says:
HahaHa did they say anything?
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
naw, only thing is I tried 2 pick a "dance fight" with some muscle lookin dude, and he was thinking it was serious so the singer broke us up
while he was singing
Q-Bert says:
Oh alright
(Killer }:~}
Lol jk
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
???
Q-Bert says:
Your sick.... Why do you want to fight?
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
it was like moshing, people were pushing around yea,, but nobody was really swinging...
and I was dancing with the wall and banging my head on it, then I was on the ground with my head on the couch and dancing like that
and then I was like, spasming out on the ground and bounced up on my feet, and landed on this one guy on the couch and he wanted to take me
Q-Bert says:
Hey let me text you back right now i'm doing something
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
out side but I was like nooo, and then I danced away from him, and I wanted water so I went to the kitchen,
Q-Bert says:
Thats cool
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
oh and I fell so I got beer spilt on me.. lol
Q-Bert says:
So it was a weak Mosh?
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
it was pretty ok,,, but it was just pushiing.. now swinging, or nosebleeds or kicks, and flying
Q-Bert says:
Who was flying??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
no one!! thats why it wasnt that good
oh, I meant NO swinging, or nosebleeds or kicks, and flying
at the end I just flipped out the window... and skated off
Q-Bert says:
Oh alright i get you.... So you only went for a couple of hours??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
yea, when I got there they hadnt even started.. it was still the intro band,, which wasnt bad actually
Q-Bert says:
What the Heck... Why you jump out the window for??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
quickest way out... and I was REALLy HOT... needed fresh air..
its ok though, I landed on my feet.. you know? likee how I flip when I jump fences
Q-Bert says:
Oh alright.... What was the name of the intro band??
(Killer }:~}
Thats Cool.... Did you break the window too??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
dont know dont care... its probably just a school band... I said they werent bad cuz the last school band I saw sucked ass
Q-Bert says:
HahaHa alright thats cool
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
no I didnt break anything... lol, I did push my girlfriend into a window and broke it, though this was at UCR..
Q-Bert says:
Yea i get What you mean...
(Killer }:~}
Your freaking stupid why would you do that??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
I forgot, I think it was something to do with a box of maxi pads, or maybe it was a single maxipad
it wasnt the only time though, this other time I think I picked her up and just spun around and dropped her without looking or something
and she ALMOST went through the window... lol that would have been bad though.. lol haha
Q-Bert says:
HahaHaha that crazy i wouldn't do that
(Killer }:~}
HahaHa thats crazy
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
so wats up with you?
Q-Bert says:
Nothing just going back to the homies house from my youth pastor house
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
chillin?
you go trick or treating or no?
Q-Bert says:
Yea we had prayer and food and just kicked back today
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
mmm, I wanned food
Q-Bert says:
No we just kick it
(Killer }:~}
Yea my friend she cooked it
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
I miss food, last time I ate was during the day,, and they had made this really spicy chipotle sauce was so aaaaaaaghhhhgggoooooddd
Q-Bert says:
Oh.... So you haven't ate you only ate once??
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
yea, but I always do that.. well I mean,, its not unusual..
Q-Bert says:
Well you at least have to eat twice the most not one
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
but that chipotle sauce... I think its .. I i think the guy out my window is on mushrooms,, I want some,, lol
Q-Bert says:
Your sick you better not do them foo
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
He was like, hey banana, come here.. I know you know me, and they were talking about mushroom or something,, banana costume
Q-Bert says:
Thats crazy but don't even try them foo or i'll beat the Crap out of you
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
lol, thnx for caring, anyways I gotta church tommorow nite nite
Q-Bert says:
Alright for Sure.... Good night and sweet dreams
(Killer }:~}
your name here says:
:D
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