What if/Tendencies+Laws+People

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On the subject of manifesting events and their realization in the external world:

Some times things happen that you dont manifest, sometimes your body does things automayically (like digest food) sometimes you move against your will.  The things that you are conscious about manifesting come from your mind, as for the things that happen without your control, even within your own body, must be manifestation from another mind; so things that fall, gravity, would be a manifestation of the Great Mind which is Reality; or more likely would be the case that Reality has put a lower mind in charge of what seem to be the laws of nature, and the Great Mind has Higher manifestations that we cant comprehend.

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File Location: My Words/Completion (What we know)/What If/What if.Laws

What if the way that everything works is the denying of our existence the so called external world.  This is another possibility a reason why you shouldnt believe what we think to be true.  What if everything is within the manifestation of your mind, everything, absolutely everything, there aare obviously parts in your mind that you have not discovered, and probably do not want to discover.  But your mind is and it is the world you live in, and it manifests what you see.  What if things work by your own mind, and you guide your mind with the things you set around you.  You are the world and the world is you.

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File Location: My Words/Completion (What we know)/What If/What if.People

What if there are people that live in oppression among us.  They love pain and they hate pleasure, but they express their happiness with anger and sadness, and they express their conflict with smiles and gifts.  They live among us, and they look happy and they are, but they hate it, deep inside, but no one knows, they live with us in our society because they are trapped, because of majority rule, or maybe they have decided to live alone, by themselves, with their kind.

How would their world be like?  People who incline towards living in pain, and hatred.  How would a society filled with these people look like?  I get a picture in my head, there would be violence and horror everywhere you look. Right?

Then you think of human beings, arent we naturally inclined to look for the good? If their world looks like hell, why doesnt our world look like heaven?

If there were such people, their world would look just like ours, to come to think of it, it is probably true. I mean look at us.

July 8, 2009

So I talk to God, and tell him that I am worried about all these things that may happen if I dont take care of earthly stuff like making money and getting my license.  I mean I have better things to do like straighten out my beliefs and pray pray pray, and talk to God and take notes on what I hear, but there are these things bugging me what if something different happens and I just dont go to college again?  So God asks me “so you are afraid of change? Is that it?”, and no, no Im not suppose to be afraid of change, change is beautiful, change is my life in the hands of God, change is what I want. Like that song from Relient K, “I think we are unto something, we are on to something good here, out of mind out of state trying to keep my head on straight... there is only one thing left to do, drop all I have and go with you! Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind, my problems fell out of the back my mind, we are going in a never knowing, never knowing where we are going, to go back to where I was would justbe wrong, Im pressing on.” :D  So no I am not afraid of change and if I am then I disgrace it and I set myself against it.  But this is an opportuity that I would letting go, I would be able to do alot of productive things.  So God says, “dont you trust that I may have other plans for you?” adn I say yes and please carry them on, I mean I dont even care to get my college degree and to get my license or to make money, I just want to do your will.  But its just that everyone around me thinks it is important and they question with idiot and faithless ideas of how am I gonna live and how will I think to help anybody, and sometimes, even though I think they are idiots, sometimes I sympathize.  And sometimes I am left convinced by the not so idiot ones, and I just wonder if I am wrong so it makes me afraid again.  What kind of work of tHE DEVIL IS THIS?!?! Send me an angel for once, Lord, if you may.

June 29, 2009

I dont know what to think, every thing I am concluding leads to Buddhism.  In my 18 or something birthday my mom told me that I was the one that she offered to God while she was pregnant.  I have always, since I was 3 if I remember correctly, have considered myself a son of Existence,of God, and always to be in line with Truth.  Now I am concluding that there may not be such thing as Existence... is it the Truth that there is no God?  I feel that all of this has come to me in “such a young age” because of my blessed mom’s offering... but who was she offering me to? When I had my first elaboration on Buddhism, I refuted, as a believer of God, that what could have happened to Buddha and his vision of Emptiness, is that God did not allow him to see His Eternal majesty, (Buddha was fat btw, and this is significant information to note).  What Buddha saw in his vision was God’s doors that were locked letting not in those that He chose to not let in.  I realize that I must have been ignorant to offer such an explanation but there it was.  And now I am coming accross that myself, if there is anything behind this empty veil it is the Most High and His Great lock.  I believe my mom, being a christian and not believing anything else or having any doubts about God, would have offered me to the God of Moses and Abraham (and maybe Jesus Christ), if all of this is happening because of my mom’s offering and I am coming accross Buddha’s highest vision of emptiness, then the only thing left behind this lock is really the Most High.  I have faith, by my mother’s prayer, that God will let me in.

Then I thought, maybe a sign will suffice, but it has to be a sure sign that cannot be refuted by any explanation, a legitamate sign.  But what kind of sign would complete this criteria?  It can not be just any physical sign, or emotional, maybe not anything that would have to do with life.  Would God be able to work a sign for me that is out of life? Of course He can.  But what kind of sign would it be? The only thing I can think of would be that He would let me be Truth itself, maybe just for a second, to let me be God Himself, so that I would truly Know what it is like to Know, and that while I am Knowing, I Know that Truth is Real.  But then again, this would fit in as only an experience, and I probably wont know what it means.

God the Locked

File Location: My Words/God/God the Locked

God the Locked!!  Those who search for Truth but find damnation.  Those who search for Infinity but find Nothingness.  God has kept them away, the Great God has Locked them away with a Great Lock, from his presence, from knowledge of him, from Enlightnement.

Then God laughs!

Then there are those who claim to know, they claim to know what he is.  But really its nothing, anything they claim can be marked as false, anything they grasp is deniable.  God remains the unknown, is He good? Is He evil? I pray to Him.  Him that is without an alias, without a face, without an account, remains alone; the Mysterious, He is  locked away, some eternal haven is the unknown.

Prayers

File Location: My Words/God/Prayers

_On a night at the Lodge at Pine Springs Ranch, I walked in search for one of God’s wonders I spoke to God in prayer, as I waited to see yet another shooting star.  Confused about what Word was, should I believe the Bible and only the Bible, arranged by Constantine the founder of paganic christianism.

“Tell me God!!! Should I eat and consume these Words!!!?? Should I live by, should I believe this so-called... (and instead of saying, I was stopped by the sight of a shooting star, as I felt it underline the word that was in my mind and not yet out of my lips... Truth)”

_ So I was praying once and I told God “wow God, you are unbelievable!” and then he says... get this he says, “well that explains why so many people have stopped believing in me.”

_I had just watched the movie “American Me” and I noticed that I was beginning to act like the people in the movie, taking their gestures, their mentality, their spirit.  “Oh God no!!! Tell me why I shouldnt feel this way God, tell me why the lives of these people are a unacceptable to you!!”  They act this sort of way, Santana does not even know how to dance or make love, he does not even do drugs he lived his life making “respect” his only god;  his goal in life was to gain respect and to be honored and feared.  He knew no other life, he did not wonder of any other aspect.  He did not wonder about life, he did not even know he was alive, he was as alive as a rock!!! (well you are gonna have to check on rock morality to see if thats a good put-down). They lived to gain respect and to be known, oh my God would Jesus go after such goals?!?!  They could have really learned something from Jesus, they would accepted Jesus with no problem!!! Would they even question Jesus’s actions like scholars do? NO! Of course they wouldnt! Seeing how they like to feel like they belong and how easily they are influenced by others, all they need, to believe, is some encouragement and affirmation from enough people.  Wow, this is really a place where the gospel would have full effect!! Where people are focused on other gods and they are unreflective, they wouldnt even think about it, they would just accept it since everybody else is doing it.  This reminds me of “zeitgeist” saying that christianity was for the poor, to control them and keep them in their place, it seemed that way when thinking about it, i dont know how it would have worked but just the fact that they would accept it and respect it and look up to it without reflection.  “So where am I then. Is Jesus only a tool to control the poor?  Well Jesus may be but my God is not.  And I am sorry God if it sounds like I am denying your Son, but I must wonder: what would I choose if it turned out that to find the Eternal the Greatest God, I had to deny...” (then God says: “Me”).  I am left astonished at the thought, what had God just told me?  That the Highest God is Higher than who I was praying to?....(awww).  Oh God too Great to hold in my mind, a God Higher than you? I felt to ignore the “God” I was praying to, and focus on this even Higher God, but then I realized that the True God would be even Higher, I writhed at the thought, “where are you Lord? How High are You? I am left less than life when I think of your Greatness,  How dare me open my lips to You! How dare me complain to You! How dare me to think that anything in my life matters! When I wonder your Greatness, I am as a grain of sand, an inanimate puppet, I SHOULD NOT EVEN BE ALIVE!!! So why do you have me here Lord? Where am I and what am I worth? You have given a body, you have given me abilities, WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH ALL OF THIS, WHEN I AM NOT EVEN ALIVE!?!?!”  I felt to not move, in front of such a Great thought, and it was not even His Greatest, I felt like my life was worth death, my consciousness was as good as a calculator’s, I am dead, my spirit is worth nothing to me since it is not even mine.

There are people who wonder, and people who dont.  I had this aspect with God where I was pointless and then He let me know of my worth, “I am a creation of the Lord now live and do His will” (another aspect).  So I am able to travel from world to worlds within God?  But what about those worlds without wondering of God?  Are they not seperate aspects and therefore worthy of being experienced, studied?