Fear

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Beware of the things that paralyze you: fear, worry, closed-mind, what else?

These mean death, as they prevent life from manifesting.

I saw her backpack, it said, “No Fear” and I realized it was something I was missing, that I aspired to have, something I needed in such situation.   And because of this, I thought I was not ready, and because I thought I was not ready, I was not ready.

Fear of failing... why else would you be afraid?

I am afraid, whenever there is something new, I am afraid of engaging in it.  Because it feels like I am not ready for it.  Will I ever be ready for it, or do I just have to feel ready to be ready, I have failed before, maybe thats why I am afraid, but why did I fail. I just have to understand that its something that I need to look at, I need to figure out why I failed and fix it, but also I must figure out if I really failed after all. What does it mean to fail?

The reason I fail is because I have a goal that means success, if I dont have a goal, I cannot fail.  So to get rid of this fear, I must lose my goals and not care if I go to that place or situation that to me would mean failure. 

(In search of the lost cities of antartica-bal sagoth)  And those around me will ask, what  is he up to, what is he try to do? And they make come up with answers but what ever reason they may give, will be wrong, no one wil know what it is that I aim for, and that is absolutely nothing, I am like of nature, with no direction, no motivation, I just live along and live where life may take me, but this does not mean that I dont love, I love, I do I love and there is this energy essential in my enjoyment,   I am me, I am energetic, and I love every minute of it.  I fly and I love, and who knows what I run into I aim for nothing but my  riches are greater than those who try to achieve, greater than those who have goals, greater than these who have fears.  Unlike them, I am not afraid to fail, I am not afraid to fall, not afraid to lose, not afraid to die.  I go where my spirit takes me and I am not afraid of all this I see, my home is everywhere, I have no home, I rather be everywhere, and there is nowhere where I would rather be.  Take me, Life, take me where you will.

So it is the fear that is keeping me from making a move? In a win or fail situation, I must be careful, and because of this, I am hesitant, I hesitate to move, I am paralyzed because I have a goal.  The greater the goal, the more I am paralyzed. 

I must appreciate the change that failure offers,  I must not be afraid just because it is an unexpected turn.  I mean seriously,

So how do I stop fearing?

I could stop believing that there is such thing as failure.

Or I could remove my goal.  Why did I come to Whitman? I dont need your credentials, I came here to fail... I just wanna see what happens, if I happen to pass.

Be blind to what is at stake.

Realize how insignifican what is at stake is.

And this should be my thinking: so what if there is an unexpected change?  We will just figure it out from there, and if I truly failed, then just appreciate your new world, and work with it.  If you geet to figure it out before you die, then you have never failed, but if you die before you figure it out, then just carry along, there is nothing else you could have done.  And how amazing lofe becomes when you realize that there really are no rules.

When you realize that nothing is at stake, then you will realize, that you are truly free.