The image that I think they are trying to portray (remember that there is always a way for something to make sense, this is the most important because with this you will have freedom), the image that they are trying to porttray tht makes everything make sense is that, they are to be wakened up by someone special, and i dont understand thins now, but I remember that i understood it before, (I think it may have to do with the beauty of transformation and who did the transforming). So my questions are, so you dont like sex?,”yes but it only comes out with a guy”, but you dont want it now.... “well no you have to teach us” but why would I give yous omething you know not about, that doesnt interest you, “well are you selfish that you wont show us innocent girls this?” people in the consumer culture dont like to try new things. “thats why you gotta have skill to make us accept it” if you dont want it, I will respect your decision and not going to try and convince you.
“Rape” of traditional image – but isnt it like rape, doing something to you, you dont want.
How to make myself approachable with the truth?
Sometimes when you give yourself an open character, people would feel ashamed to be closed.
This is the answer for a prayer, the beginning of essential, I dont prayer for certain things to be done;I pray for these certain things to have been prayed for; I dont pray for things that I think are important; i pray to know what is important enough to pray for.
Change of lifestyle is satisfaction
What makes one will win over another? So matter has memory and everything affects us, should we avoid satanic bibles, and going to danceclubs, and certain people, paranoid of what you might catch? Or cant you use God’s Power to overcome it... and so on the same subject, there are times, like when you pay evil for evil, so everybody pays evil, and it takes over. Capitalists turn you into a capitalist, and liars pist you of so that you become a liar yourself. How does one become unnaffected? How can one wear the red shirt, and not be judged? (as in he wins the will of others to understand him, as in with his openness he encourages others to open up)
I have a dilemma with this because people tell me to not bea creep. “Dont do that, because people dont like you when you express yourself”, they encourage me to become like them? what makes one will win over the other? Does it have something to do with threat?
Ridiculous afro, of time in my child when I thought of myself and concerned about all the ages and people and dimension that thought of our every day life as ridiculous
In every aspect: when you have a passion for something you would realize it want it done, fantasize its success.
The name thing its personal.. and noes idea of orange color
I want to be with someone not that they come to understand me, but that they have understoood me since youth
My friend said, idont know, but its not the case that you dont know, its in your head, you already have an opinion, but you havent sorted it out, ot you havent dug for its clarity.
Im at my friend’s house, we left the lodge... I dont get that new house impression I used to get everytime I found myself living and studying a new house, or a new place when I was little... wehn I was a chilold and wondered.. I think its because I have already set my mind to “know” what a home is, it isnt strange, the walls are made out opf wood, there is interesting glass, but nothing wonderful, nothing is new, nothing is strange. Now I could easily get in that state, and I probably have already.
What I mean by this: we went for a prayer walk, prayer and exercise, I gave myself no pressure, so I didnt bother to pray out loud, I was talking to God about, how find things, and I fantasize that they mat be from my love, symbols left from a passionate desperate girl; theone I look for. Then what if they are not? And it makes me uneasy that I could be relishing over a message that is not for me.
An symbol now has an intention, because I left that symbols with that intention, it doesnt matter who or where the symbol ends up, if someone finds a similar symbol on anything anywhere, with the same intention, it has been from me.
I heard from David VanKoevering sermon of how matter has memory, this is my explanation: photons get recorded in more thing than we can see, when we take a picture we see a manifestaiton that is visible to our physical eyes as they work through our conscioussness. But there are other levels of record that may not be visible to us, or just in a completely “conscious” state. And in the same way, light can record images, so that when we pay attention to walls in a certain way, we see images of what they have seen. We get emotions of what they have felt around them, thoughts that were thought in that room, intentions of that room.
So Im at my friend’s house watching tv... nothing else, he told me he was going to spend time with his girlfriend. So he tell me to entertain myself, and I would, and be good at it, if I knew my way around the house, and I wouldd learn my way around the house myself, if it didnt mean that I was taking a risk (ridiculous I know). So am I going to take a risk? Of course not, I have taken too many and they never turn out well, I dont think they want me to feel uncomfortable to the point that I dont make myself at home and look around myself, its not their fault, its this one guy’s fault, and whitman’s students. He was pist at me, he “took away all my priviledges” I chose not to move from the couch... and thats basically as much freedom I feel right now (basically because thats what I am doing right now. My mind is just closed right now, and I dont know how to open it,, except for the mothods so far, but I dont feel like doing them. I havent changed my lifestyle, this is ridiculous.
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