An important idea that keeps coming up in my mind is, “why am I donig this? Is there not a better more effecient way?” The question happened and got answered instantly today, so that I almost missed it. I answered it with, “I am only doing this, as everything else that is done, for the Glory of God”. When I accuse myself of doing it the wrong way, I reply to myself that I am not doing a certain thing to get a prize at the end, I am anticipating a reward for my actions, I am only doing it by the grace of God. With this in mind, I do not have to worry about doing what I do correctly or finding a better way to do it, or to keep myself from doing it because there may be a better way, because I am not doing anything to get a reward. I am not typing this diary so that anyone will read it, there is no risk I am taking, no worry in my mind (no conscious worry, at least). This new idea seems essential, but why didnt I use it before? Or why didnt it help before? This is God = the Lulz, I had already had this idea in mind, and I was using it, but as I was pushing myself in another direction.
Cant sleep due to mental inspiration, but can’t think due to lack of sleep. (and vice versa)
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