Ok so new mantra, “nothing’s wrong” I repeat this to myself whenever I hesitate to do something, I still hesitate to do certain things, but its only because I dont want them, not because I think I shouldnt do them, so all I do is based on what I want, not what I should or shouldnt do out of consideration to others. Should I be considerate towards others? I assume I must since I assume that others have the same value as I do, I would like for there to be happiness, and harmony, is somehting I want for myself, so I wish it for others as well because they are as I am, if there is one piece of cake left, and only one of us can have it, I will not be unsatisfied because one of us is as good as another one of us. But nothing is wrong.
What does it mean for somehting to be wrong? For something to be wrong is to consider it not belonging in life, that it should NEVER happen in life, but everything does happen in life at least once, or at least everything we know of, so this means that whatever we do is not wrong, if we do it, its not wrong, this is why Jesus Christ can forgive any sin. Whatever we do is not wrong, but its just that certain people dont like certain things, but there are all kinds of people everywhere nobody should dictate to you what is universally unacceptable if they do not have a universal sense of acceptance, the way Jesus does, the Son of Man.So everything depends on what you want, what I want is for myself to live (now as well as everybody else to live), but I must learn that I am not always going to get what I want in life, and SO WHAT?! People get worse outcomes all the time, I must learn that sometimes I will get what I dont want. I want everyone to live, but people die all the time, its a fact of life, so even if I end up accidenntly killing someone because I was doing what I want, trying to make them live, I will not feel guilty, because people die all the time, something that I did not want happened but I must learn to live with it. I wouldnt kill someone on purpose because I want to live as I want them to, I may want to hurt them as I would like to be hurt sometimes, but I wouldnt want them to die. So I would never kill someone, or I would never hurt them in order to kill them.
So it ends up being that I will be judged with my own measure (because I am accepting from others what I would give to them and vice versa)
So there may be an objective right and wrong, thats what the commandments are, but in the end it all depends on what I want to do, do I want to do right, and do I want to avoid wrong? I certainly do, but alot of times im not going to get what I want and I must preservere. If I want something that I believe is wrong, I will rule it out, because I want to do right (to Live) more than anything else. I believe in the distinction between life and death, but Life is better to me only because I WANT IT. I am not choosing life because it is right, I am choosing it because I want it. So there is no conflict between what is right and what I want, because I want Life, I want what is right! But if someone is trying to tell me that I have been donig wrong all my life, I am not going to feel guilty because I have done nothing wrong, according to myself, I have only done something that I dont want... but I must learn that sometimes I dont get what I want, and there is nothing more to it, no fear, no inhibitions, I am only left in pain and unsatisfied, which is completely fine with me, because it happens all the time to people in the world, I am as good as others, when others feel pain, I may as well have it myself. So I will complain no more about having pain myself, then I am doing about others.
Sometimes I may hurt people, or I may do things that other people dont like, unconsciously, accidentally, but I will have done nothing wrong, so I will not quit or change for their sake. Because I am not doing wrong by not doing what they want
This is moral philoosophy, that what we do is not based on right and wrong. Regardless of there being right and wrong, every one does what they want. This fact does not encourage altruism, we are not working here to get everyone what they want, if thats what we were working for we would all have to be paradoxes, to satisfy all the contradicting desires.
There are times when people overeact, not because there is something Wrong, but because something happened that they themselves, do not accept. Its because they dont want it, dont let them convince you that its Wrong, that it should never happen, or even that NO ONE in the universe would ever want such a thing and therefore you shouldnt do it. They are obviously overreacting and they are being proposterous and silly, and they are being proud in declaring what everybody else in the unverse may or may not want, they dont know shit! Dont let them convince you. And if you did do somthing that someone did not want, get over it, it happens sometimes okay, learn to accept it, I will always make mistakes because thats how life is, so stop being such an incompetent asshole about it. I will do my best to do that myself.
So there nothing is wrong, this mean that I can live now without being afraid, I could take risks, and I can learn now. Because things happen all the time that people dont want, and I should learn that sometimes this will happen to me.
Oh and the red shirts, fuck them, learn to live in the world you sensitive scrap children!! Havent you learned that sometimes things happen in the world even though you dont want them? dont you know that there are people in other parts of the world suffering millions more than your pathetic little pain? Besides even if I do what you say I will be not doing what I want, and what those like me want, so if you are not going to help, buzz off. I will try to understand your side, and do what you want me to do, but if it keeps me from doing what I, and others like me, may want, you can learn my way instead. Or we can take turns.
Thank you God.
Ive figured out how I can be myself by claiming it..
Now I gotta learn how to interact with others, and how much to push?
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