February 28, 2010

To bring something into being, is not about creating out of nothing, since one cannot have life on its own, but already has all, all you have to do which is the result of practice, is the perception and isolation of the desired outcome, you see how its possible, how its potential already exists.

Riding skaterboard (I left my music book at the GAC, no music homework tonight I guess), while riding I thought about why I felt no fear if the hw was due tommorrow, because I would plan to look for it and do it quick? Or maybe I would fail and nothing more? I didnt fear, I thought about the plans one has to woo a girl, they fear when they feel that they wont accomplish the goal, but God says, worry not, this is exactly how it is suppose to be, but we think that to accomplish something it must be done a certain way, if all of our actions have goals, what are we trying to accomplish at the end?   I was worried that I wouldnt get the girl, and I failed, but was getting the girl the way to accomplish my goal in life? It seemed so to me, to be the only way, but God says that there are infinite ways.

The goal will be a surprise to us, whatever comes at the end will have been our goal.

We are rejecting a world when it is falling apart, it falls apart because it doesnt go the way we thought it would, we worry about it not because we failed, but because we await a failure, I could have begun to fear when I realized that I was not going to be able to do m homework but I foresaw other options, or maybe not forsaw, but had faith on them at least.  It seems that every goal that we have is a means to a greater goal leading to our greatest goal, if our greatest goal is something corruptible, we will kill ourselves, if our greatest goal is unknown, I might be going somewhere with this.

I dont know if this is just a world or if its actually the Love I am looking for.

There is a difference between Love and laughter, I felt it: laughter is when you are not concerned about the range of outcome of something though the motions imply a certain outcome that does not get accomplished.  (It may be important to look at WHY its of no concern rather than realizing that there is still ranges that you are concerned about.)  Love does not involve surprises that makes us laugh, but Loving all possibilities as much as the other, because of how one gets rid of the expectations that are created by our conditioning to the laws of causality, there is no “implying motions” but every possibility is as expected as the other, and all are Loved fully and equally, unconditionally.  This takes, literally, letting go of our world.  And with Love everything is seen as a miracle, as it truly is.