June 3, 2011

I’ve been trying to silence my thoughts throughout the day, even if they tell me to let them talk… Im just doing it.

I listen to my favorite song, but I try not to immerse myself in it like I usually do, and I listen to the rest of the noises, and I realize that the music and the world I once loved is nothing but electrical signals being delivered to some speaker devices, nothing but that.  Where is the world that I yearn for?  Should I put the music louder?  Is that where my world is?  Should I get as close to the speaker as I can?  Is that where my world is?  Should I shrink myself and make my dwelling in this transmitter?  Is this how I get to heaven?  Should I go behind the speaker and reach the electrical information that controls it?  Should I go beyond the electrical information and reach the instruments that created this majestic sound?  Is this how I get to the heart of this song?  Do I listen beyond the instruments and imitate the minds that were inspired to make this song?  Is this how I make my life move like this song?  Or do I get a hold of the inspiration itself?  Is this how I make love to this song?  Is this how I become one with this song?  This inspiration that I am after, is what inspired my desire for it. 

As I listen to the song, if I immerse myself inside the sound that comes from the speaker, it becomes a world in itself: the source of the sound waves that get transmitted to this speaker divine; this is what heaven sounds like. 

As I listen to the song and to everything else, it feels like just another part of the world I live in.  Heaven does not come from this music, but it is already part of me.  I just need to unlock it and open it up.

All this time I have been after something that is inspired in the world, I immerse myself in this song and accept it as divine like a child who thinks he is the prince in the storybook.  But it is just a song, and this inspiration is nothing but idle enjoyment… and it is enjoyable.

I am a hopeless adventurer.