Friday, October 8, 2010

October 8, 2010

There are questions hidden inside of us that we do not know that we are asking.  I must seek answers I never thought existed.

Yesterday I thought about a God beyond the pleroma and anything that we can conceive of as God.  So that the most important thing in the Universe was not at all a God of any sort, and that the Greatest is not anything that can be regarded as “important”.  Is not anything like we conceive, as an “answer”. 
This morning I “smoked too many cigarettes”.  I am tired of questions, I am tired of answers, I just want out of the cycle, but wanting is just another dissatisfaction… another question, another craving.  I just don’t want to care.
Walking to chemistry class I saw a one-year-old drop his fuzzy toy.  “Agh!” was his reaction… they start so young, oh Jesus.

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