March 5, 2010

I see it:

this morining I sensed my professor treating me nicer than she used to, it all played well in my head, another professor came to see us, he observed my attempt to participate and noticed my prof, discouraging me (unconsciously of course) called her out on it, and now she is nicer now.  But this could all just be in my head, it is very possible that some, or all, of these things were never true.  In analyzing these possiblities, I assumed that it was true that there was in fact some tension between the prof and me, and so my body responded appropriately in accordance with the tension. But then I assumed that it wasnt true that the other professor had talked to her or said anything about me.  But as I had faith that it had happened my facial expressions may have expressed no tension, and also my mind may not have bothered to emphasize the features on the prof’s face to make me think that there was a tension.

Giving people an omen to guide their vision: This says something interesting about the world, that there need not be an explanation or anything in our level of truth and justice in order for things to be resolved, our world is full of illusions and irrelevancies, we put these irrelevancies  on the throne of Truth so that we need to get things resolved with the same level of illusion.  We need to see in order to believe, even though it is true that we shouldnt value our senses this much since they apparently yhey can be fooled over and over again.  My point is that I was satisfied about the “tension” by seeing and interpreting something in a certain way, it all has to do with what I think, and I dont even believe that what I think is true, but my minds fantasy has created for itself a satisfaction. I am thinking more of the terms of the following... So in the end, if someone casts wrongful accusations on you, there is no point in proving your innocence; really, anybody could come up with a very good excuse for any wrong they have done so that others can sympathize and consider him innocent.  The way that the justice system seems to work in this world of sin is that if one can argue enough sympathy into the minds of others then they are innocent, if they dont have such skill, so that they are not understood, they are guilty; therefore the guilty are always only misunderstood, and/but the misunderstood are typically (not always) looked upon with suspicion and disdain.  In this sense, the way that our sinful justice system works is indeed that we destroy (or cast out) the things that we do not understand (as mentioned by Otep in “blood pig”).  These things that we do not understand, are to some degree or direction that it confuses us to the point that we do not know how it should exist and therefore believe that it shouldnt exist, resulting in us trying to rid and prevent its existence.  Since all these collected perceptions are caused by illusions we can only settle them by either acknowledging the fundemental Truth and Greatness of God, or by countering them with other illusions (which is our cultures version of truth), or by what we call justifying ourselves or revealing our innocence by proving our lack of movement in our trangression rather than proving our lack of trangression in our movement.

This means that in order to settle tensions in the world, one doesnt need to look for justice and truth.  They just need to allow the others understand that the fantasy that they crave is realized.  Or in other words, they just need to be told a story that gives them the right.  Whether its true or not it doesnt matter, just as long as they see something that satisfy their craving; this does not, however, solve the sin, as the potential for tension still exists.  True Justice is Eternal, and people that demand anything else than knowing the Truths of God are only demanding worldly justice (to satisfy their fantasy illusion), rather than Godly Justice (that follows from their understanding that they need not feel wronged).

What matters and the values that the media portrays about arrogance and being a disgrace if you are fooled makes us want to make conclusions about things so that we are not comfortable with letting things go, until we have settled them.

What I have learned from experiences like these is that even though these suspcions might be true, it really isnt a good idea to focus and act upon suspicions even if they are true, not only are they pointless, but they are also fleeting, so that a person can deny to their death the possibility of their flaw, and it would be true for a simple reason that you should think about, fleeting.

Planting happiness: get the feeling, plant it in places as you go through them in your mind.