April 6, 2010

I am everything and everyone, when people are asked who they are, they answer with what they are being, because if we were to consider who each person is, we would find that we are all human, and the qualities of one are equally others, in some sense or potentiality... People who say, “I would never do something like that” are just blind to the things that would change their mind, and are ignorant to the beauty of the things they reject.  We are all mankind, and we are all each other, the sins of one, are the potential sins of another, whether they are manifested or not, they are sinners since conception.  We are all different in variable aspects; meaning we could all be the same, whether we are all in sin and only understand each other and nothing else, or whether we are all fully purified.  Some people get sqeamish when they see blood, some people are disgusted at homosexuals, some people are terrified of pain; we all have our areas in which there are symbols that we reject.  It does not mean that any of this is generally bad, it does not mean that anybody who is at peace with any of these is a misfit.

I have the belief that if you don’t understand something, it is because I dont understand how you do understand it, so dont try to explain my side.

I have the belief that if I dont like something it, I must learn to love it before I let it go, so I dont fix any of my problems.

Its taking too long for me to figure this out, I wish I could just pray and ask God, why do things hurt?  But He speaks a language that I can only listen with the deepness of my soul.  This shit is everywhere...

Anyways, so I am terrified of fear and hell, so its the only thing holding me back, its the only thing that can hold me back,  I guess I have to learn to see beauty in not seeing beauty... how do I fukin do that? I have to see beauty in being terrified and being silent, I have to see beauty and appreciate pain, and willingly ask for torment.

I think my problem is that I keep rejecting things because I want to stay in fear to figure out how to get out.  I dont want to use what I have discovered because I dont believe that they will work completely; but now I am thinking that I may not ever find out what works completely because I never try them.  Or it could be possible that it doesnt matter what happens, I have a chance to figure it out no matter what happens.

We all hate only one thing, and everything we happen to connect to it, branches out rejection.

Maybe the element is belief, disbelievers are condemned those who dont believe in the Infinite.

I was thinking about how I must think about how I am already in pain to not mind what I am about to risk.  Or how maybe being okay with my current situation, with not needing like I have to change myself will actually free me from feeling like I must do things, and allow me to be free.  So then around the same lines I thought about the following:

Tap.com uses the statement “even though I have this feeling, I... and completely accept myself,” this is declaring that the feeling is only a problem in yourself and has nothing to do with the environment around you, and even though you are stupid to make such connections, you will still be at peace with yourself.

But I dont think this is what I am looking for.

I thnk what I am looking for is being at peace with my present will make me not feel forced, why is this?  Because if the fears that I have that I feel like I must do something, my question is, how do I feel at peace when I am afraid of something, do I just not go after what I am afraid of? Well, to be at peace with myself, is to accept whether I have something or not.  It seemed and I mentioned before that, fear was a result of a double force, one forward (desire) and one backward (desire) the conflict between these two desires create what is known as fear, but may there is a sense in which they are both the same, and ther is a single tension causing the illusion of two, this would be, dissatisfaction with your present state.The only reason you want something is because you believe that you need to get it, and if you do not already have it, its because there is something holding you back, if there was nothing holding you back there would not be a problem,  but there would be no desire either, the simultaenuity of this double for indicates one source, dissatisfaction.  What happens when you accept yourself?

When  you are falling asleep, pay attention, your mind speaks.  Letting your subconscious run, but consciously processing it.

April 5, 2010

The image of the warrior, mentioned by... I forgot her name, I met her in I think it was a reuniun  of some sort, anyways, it had something to do with buddhism or taoism or something... It came to me this morning but I am afraid to use this method because I do not say how I figured it out except that

Another image is to be able to take it up the ass, thats what I kept repeating that day before it happened, I guess what you have to do is want it over anything else, and admit that and you must always want it like that, want it over anything else.  Take it up the ass, or in other words, be insubmission to it.

Why do people say that Life is a bitch?  What did they expect? What were they trying to do with it so that they are left unsatisfied this way and see it as bitchy?  Were they trying to tame Life?  Did they think they could be in control of Infinite Life itself with their corrupt and finite minds?  Treat Life with the and openess and respect it deserves, and you will come to understand it more fully, stop trying to deceive it, stop trying to coerce it to do what you want, love whatever it gives you, because

Life is not a bitch, Life is a pimp, be a good bitch and it won’t treat you so bad, be an assertive and creative bitch and you may get a promotion!

Why are people who worship God, who practice submission to Him, unsatisfied?  Because they they try to use God to help them tame Life,forgetting that God is Life itself.  Be in submission to God/Life, receive its blessings and do not deny what you dont like about it, But Love it fully.  Be Life’s wife and Love it Unconditionally, because any other husband lacks comprehensiveness and is unfitting.  Be in submission to Life and no one and nothing else, but there are so many things in Life how do you know which one  Life is?  How do we know what to submit to?  It does not matter what we do or choose, as long as Life is the only thing we value, we can never be disappointed.

Life does not disappoint, disappoint comes because you submit yourself to something other than Life.  Life would not disappoint because submitting yourself to Life would be to not deny the Truth of anything that is True.

Also remember that Life Loves you Unconditionally, and everything that it throws at you, are only a mix of soft and sharp gifts, it never wants to punish you, and it never hates you.  You cannot reject things just because they are weird and new, but learn how Life has meant for you to love what it has given you, and savor every aspect of it.

And this is why I say that confusion and conflict is beautiful, because to accept, we must learn to love those things we hate, even hate itself.  We must love everyone and everything for who and what they are and expect nothing different from them, then what they are.

Anyways, sometimes we try to love and accept those things that we are afraid of, but the feminality of the “wife” image may make some of us think that we cannot be assertive, and that we must be innocent and afraid; this is not submission to God, but to the gender role that culture has presented.  The image of the warrior, anything that comes is no sweat; I have a feeling that these “images” is not how I should be trying to solve the problem, I am submitting to the images rather than to the Totality of Life, but it will help for now,  have not been going anywhere... and I am afraid of being afraid of something thats coming later in the day, I am submitted to corrupt things and I do not know any other way to, solve the problem.  This is insane, idolatry should not be the answer to idolatry.

I need to see not only how I can stand the blessings of God, but how I can appreciate them and see beauty in them.

Ok this may the answer since it keeps coming up: to realize what God is, His Unknown and Infinite wonders, to be amazed at the wonder of Life as if it was your first day alive, and every new thing that happens, be not afraid of it, but be curious, look into it and see its wonders, its simplicity or complexity, its complexity within its simplicity, and never wish it was gone (even though you may not say it, you may still wish it).  I will try to collect reasons and descriptions to love Life.

Trying to love something, when you see someone that likes something weird, and you want to understand why they love it.  You ask them what about it, makes them love such a thing.

Listening to “mean girl” by Unwritten Law, and thinking about what true love is, the kind that makes you feel free and inspired, actually inspired, not just that you want to be with that person, and that you all this nasty stuff that you like with her, but you would love anythi... this is hard to describe, its a new concept but I am using all the same words I have heard before... does this mean that there is no way to tell if you are really in love?  I think the key word here is “inspiration”: you know your love is true not when you would be willing to give up whatever you have for the other, but when you are inspired that it these other things do not matter; so you cant boast or complain about what you have given up, unless you wake up from the love spell. True love is not about suffering sacrifices, its about coming to the realization that the objects that you used to hold dear are worthless, you are inspired to be free.

And now when you are in Love with Life you would be inspired to go through anything, not just for Life’s sake, but because of the fact that your comfort is meaningless compared to the meaning of life...agh I am not saying any of this right.

Consider Life and Infinity as a whole, remember death and what mattered then, and why do things matter now, and what will they matter after this life is over,  this could be seen as something to be depressed about, if you dont consider the wonders and Love of Infinity, or it could be seen as inspirational, you are free to do as you will.

Prayer to Reality: think of the reasons why you are afraid and why every reason that you find in every step you take towards it does not matter.

Just because the possibilities are not outwardly manifested does not mean that they are not True.  When a person asks, “would you...?” this would is part of this person and thee rest of reality  even if they never do.  And what people in sin do not know is that they “would... anything!”  because every person has its price, whether its in monetary or emotional wealth.

I always thought about how to anticipate things, or how to be ready for things to happen, well its to not fear them, and not try to avoid them, if you fear them and you try to avoid them then when they do happen it will be a surprise, because of all the efforts one did to avoid a certain problem.  You can never get completely rid of a possibility in Infinite Reality, and you cannot avoid it forever.  If you do not fear it, you will not be afraid to consider it, and if you consider it without trying to avoid, you will be ready when it comes.

The problem is that for some reason, when things seem to be going well for a while with the same repeated symbols we connect God with the symbols and so end up in idolatry.  If your happiness depends on any outside symbol then its idolatry.  Whoever depends on the approval of others to feel free, is commiting idolatry.  In the end we are all... so when do we ever respond to our environment?  Well, this is only describing perfection; in a sense this may be the description of God, and the lower beings may  be those who depend on the environment, and those that are able to seek out happiness independent from the environment are those made in the image of God.  I am not sure about this as I think in genesis before the fall of man, maybe it was True that Adam, created in the exact image of God, also did not depend on idols, but only after sin came in God had mercy on us though we are unfit for reality.

I shouldnt be ashamed of my nature, though I should try to improve it, I must be at peace with myself.  Again I repeat, you should not fear being afraid, I am just afraid to go by this, because last time I did, I was afraid.

Its comforting to know that all those who would ever offend me are weak... though this is useful... should I use it?

If you truly do not fear it, you would have considered it in your calmness, the purpose may not be to consider all things at will, but fear not when they come to remain true to calmness.

What terrifies me about this:

Is that you dont learn by looking, you can open a box and look inside, and still not see its contents, you can go inside a room and still not see what is in there; it terrifies me because this would mean it is possible for me to be lost in utter darkness no matter what I decide to do on the surface, I could decide to donate money to a kid and regret it most painfully for the rest of my life... this means that I have to learn to be at peace with the possibility of utter darkness in other words, I must be at peace with hell.

At wcf I had the feeling that I was who I was.. and needed nothing to prove it.

I also figured that the reason why I am not going anywhere is because I am not taking any steps because I know that I am not complete... but if I dont take any steps, how the hell am I gonna move forward?

April 4, 2010

A time comes around when someone’s life obsession loses its meaning and all of a sudden everything they have worked for their whole life is now empty.

yea, thats what happens when your eyes fall short from seeking the Ultimate Fantasy, the Undying desire of every living being. In simple terms, this Unknown goal is the Most-High God, and Math is nothing but a lower god. The fulfillment in the end, is common for all, Truth and Fantasy, basically Utter AWESOMENESS, the spark that makes us live is a yearning for us to make Love to Life, to rape it and become God.  My interest in philosophy is because of this, so far I have only figured out the Meaning of Life, Now I am trying to figure out how to obtain it Completely.  I’ll let you know what its like when I am in full likeness of God, or probably not, since God seems to not give a damn sometimes... aha aha ahahahah.

Some stuff that I wrote down over spring break but lost:

1)      What is the meaning of Life?

But why do we even look for meaning? Because meaning is Life.

The spark of life in us, is evidence that our inner-most desire is to live fully...

So how do we live fully? Mankind searches for meaning in life.

When life SEEMS to have become meaningless, it SEEMS that there is no “life” in living.

Why do we search for meaning in life?

The Meaning of Life is Meaning itself, our purpose is to see Meaning in its Infinity, the purpose of Life is for us to Live Fully... but since sin, cowardice has blinded us by making us fear the Infinite aspects of this Reality.  Mankind would rather not see the Truth: to them, it is gruesome, they reject Truth with hate and disgust.  The answer to this is Love, the more you Love and the more you accept and listen to, the more Life/Meaning you let in.  The more you open your heart to the Infinite and Unknown aspects of Life the more you are at peace with Reality.

2)      I think I forgot the rest

God = the Lulz?

I think what is holding back from moving forward in this again is because I am not accomplished.  But I must understand that just because I have not ascended, does not mean I am lost... well I am lost, but the point is that I was not ascended in highschool and neither was I last week.  The porblem is that I get discouraged because though I have felt God’s love in great ways, I have not ascended and I have not seen God’s face, I am discouraged because I only went so far, and I am worried that I will always only go “so far.” I need to figure out what spot I am in and move from there instead of trying to guess the end, work on the present.

Anyways so, the question that inspired me was: would you do such and such for “God” and you must think about all that God is that those things that youthink should not exist actually belong, and so what? And you should let it be and... well Im obviously missing something. 

So, sometimes I let it be and sometimes I dont... why?

God = the Ultimate Fantasy

Its not about doing, its about being (changing your lifestyle... written about in 2009 diary), to match the accomplishment of your fantasy, an affirmative “would you be willing” is an admitting (realization) of the potential reality, true confession brings satisfaction and manifestation.

Think of all the things  you can be, if you just let it loose not mind anything in free-spiritness.  Go ahead and let your mind go wild with dreams... and before you know it those dreams will come true.

Its not about doing what you want for there to happen, its about being what you want there to be.

When you “be” instead of “do,” it is ever-fulfilling, instead of just fixing an instance, you take care of future possibilities as well.  Accomplishment by actions depends on the manifestation that take place (surface).  Accomplishment by “being” depends on the potential that your spirit carries and continually addresses the possibilities (for as long as you have it).  What do you want to accomplish?

A fantasy greater than yourself, the Ultimate Fantasy (instead of lower mundane fantasies).

I think it all extends from not wanting stuff to be true.  When you cant stand things being true, the mind goes to extreme and confusing measures to try and deny, destroy, and whatever it takes to get rid of it from your mind, but never the Universe.

Accept and do not deny whatever comes, do not deny Truth.  In here we call it “confession”you confess to (all of) Reality, your name and your state, not necessarily everybody will know, (since its not about what happens, its about the possibilities of the spirit) but you should be able to let it flow freely, and “be proud” of your nature.

To accept something: hold the yearning for the Ultimate Fantasy always in your heart, the Meaning of Life, the reason why we were born, the purpose that is porclaimed from the beginning of existence is to BE.  Hide and kill nothing, be ashamed of nothing, everything that happens is a Beauty of Life.  DO you yearn for life, are you not glad there is happiness, joy, openness, and the gruesome extremes of thoughts and sensation?  Would you do it for the sake of Life, God, Meaning, Fantasy, Infinity, Unknown?  You know damn well that when you accept Reality only good can come, sometimes you dress it with evil, but there is no sense in denying Truth.

See how your situation (and anything that may come out of it... any possibility) plays into and belongs in with Reality.

Faith that you have even better fantasies than what you want and are at your disposal, no matter what it turns out to be.  The nice thing about acceptance is that it pays off immediately.

When you say that you cant do  something, say instead: I can’t be the one who does (so and so), instead of saying that you can’t be such person, realize you: already are/have always been. How you have always been accepting what you fear.

Permission to go in through the gates of the Unknown

is in realizing that you have been inside all along,

to know that God has always loved and has never left your side.or probably not, since God seems to not give a damn sometimes... aha aha ahahahaha yearning for us to make Love to Life, to rape it and become God. My interest in philosophy is because of this, so far I have figured out the Meaning of Life, now I am only trying to figure out how to obtain it Completely. Ill let you know what its like when I am in full likeness of God, or probably not, since God seems to not give a damn sometimes... aha aha ahahahah

To realize that you already are what you want to be,

And that the Fantasy that you seeks you, makes you completely Free.

Whether you try to hide the Truth or not, it always Is, ever-present.  You hide the truth because of certain things that you are afraid of, but these certain things are also True even if they are not outwardly manifested.  If you are ashamed of commiting a crime, it does not matter how much you hide it, it is still True, it does not matter if others know or not, their prejudice is in their spirit even if they see no reason to expose it.  People that keep secrets out of fear of being rejected, are already being rejected as they have not the freedom to confess and be accepted, rejection is always there whether it is outwardly manifested or not, so there is no point in hiding from it, there is no point in fearing it.  Let the Truth be manifested, fear it not, and from what is exposed you will find the Great and Unclouded will of God.

April 2, 2010

Why does it take effort? I think because I am afraid of it.

If I identify it... I can address it.  But probably not accept it, but alter it; like flavored water, instead of enjoying water.

Thoughts that once used to seem productive, are now a waste of time.

I can feel the cold in parts of my body creating a shape in my life, shaping my universe.

These quiet distinctions are the voice of God.

Its true there is something wrong with me, something that people dont like, but thinking that it matters makes it worse and fixing the problem doesnt get rid of it.

I have an idea of the effects that openness is suppose to bring but it wont work the way I used to think it worked, because the method is driven by mundane desires for glory and acceptance (but do these desires mean anything).

Today I noticed that I was, I was holding myself back from smiling, like the smirk that people get.  Which kept me from fully expressing happiness.

Now this feeling I have inside that frustrates me is trapped inside me because I have been thought that its no use crying, specially if no ones around around to see it, just like I was singing this morning, I had dreamed up this song “I was told to block away the tears that come from my face to show not an irrelevant side.  And now, as time comes to perfect time, the unreasonable law abides, not to let sadness conquer my eyes.”    But we really need to let it out indefinitiely, this is our state of nature to constantly feel this relief, and we are dying and in pain because we dont allow ourselves to breathe.

Or is it for a purpose? Is it because of death that we cry? Or we need to constantly cry because of the constant forces against life, we need to laugh for the same reason. Or is this where life and inspiration takes us?

Like when a newborn lets out all the life it has by letting out all that it can, it is not concerned about hurting any ears, it proclaims like and essence of power through its cry.  Is this the nature of every human being?  Is this how we worship Reality?

Or maybe its a result of imbalance, and all thats not living and being manifested allows this to be isolated, the sadness of sin, even when a baby is born it recognizes that its not what its suppose to be. 

I feel death at the ends of my life sending a signal each from its side colliding at this point and time saying “make it count”.

I feel some movements on the outsides of my body, its probably movements of energy in the unused parts of my brain.

As I walk through here, I see things that may be wrong, but they may be right, there are certain things that I feel like doing, that I feel like having, these are my desires, but in reality there is no perfection, I try to tell myself that no matter what happens it will be perfect, but Im concerned about things being perfect, in reality there is no perfection, because everything is perfect.  I do some things and I have to understand that what happens is not good or bad, right or wrong, there is no judgement, it just is, it doesnt judge itself, and I shouldnt judge it either, and though I want to feel this freedom, there are so many indications in my mind, received from the symbols around me, that tell me, that make me believe, that things should be a certain way, and it doesnt allow me to do anything, it block so many aspects of my mind, I do not feel free, there are so many inhibitions around me.  And its not just when i come to them but they are always there, whether I decide to feel them or not, they are part of my life  and they make up: who I am being, but not: who I am.  I am everything that can ever be, but I can only be what I’ve been taught to  allow myself to be.

When concern destroys the object it is trying to protect.  How if you fear the corruption of a corruptible object, you are bring it to its end.  The things that naturally flow through it holding its essence, are seen as harmful to it, by him who is sinfully concerned.  The impure attempts to hold the state of a corruptible object, seize the natural flow of the object’s essence.

Hey,

About today, sorry for startling you like that, I really didnt mean to do that...

I felt like crying when you told me that you were scared of me, there is too many people that feel the same way.  I dont know what it is, I’m not trying to scare anyone, but I guess there something wrong with my face or something, the way I use my expressions probably.  It feels like everytime I try to be myself someone ends up feeling unsafe and reporting me.. which is why I dont feel like anybody wants to be around me.  I am not angry or trying to beat anyone down, I just like rough play and heavy humor, so please dont mind.

Just explaining things hoping that you wont feel like im not safe to be around, and ultimately because I am worried about getting reported again, that would be sad, hope you understand.

Oh and Tom, I like him because he is the only mentally stable person I’ve met in walla walla, that understands where I am coming from. 

April 1, 2010

It’s not the familiar-but-new feeling, its a feeling I know I’ve had before but it feels completely fresh!!

Its so beautiful, everytime I think about it, my burden gets lighter and lighter.  My heart starts racing from excitement, not anxiety, worries that I didnt know were there are removed.  But what does this all mean?  What is this? I lay, trying to find a way to describe it, so I could tell the next person and explain what matters in life.  I’m concerned about forgetting it, and then not being able to remember how to do it... my heart wants to jump out of my chest with excitement as I am typing this.

I kept thinking about it this way:  In Wicca there is evocation and invocation: evocation is when you call energy out of your body to take care of things in the outside world, or to manifest a desire or something.  Invocation is when you call a spirit or energy to come inside your body.  After an evocation you feel drained (because of the energy that leaves you), after an invocation you feel energetic, (because of the energy that comes in).  I remember I was always trying to do an invocation but I always felt drained afterwards; I also remember that before I got into Wicca, and after my obsession with this one girl, I would do this all the time that I would lay down and have a thinking session and I would feel inspired after it, keeping this in mind, I tried to figure out what it meant, and do “the opposite” of what I was doing those times.  Basically, invocation felt like giving, I was (my fingers are shaking from the excitement as I am typing this... it is not an anxious excitement as if I am anticipating something or chomping at the bit, its like a joyful excitement, and it feels really good, as if I am getting kissed and I just want to cry)... Invocation felt like I was giving up instead of trying to receive or take something.  And I guess it makes sense, because for the will of God to come into you, you have to give up your current will.  But what makes it exciting?

Its like the sum and combination of everything I believe about God’s greatness.  Like if all this time I was putting things together and now I lighted the spark, or maybe I was identifying things from when things were in motion and now things are in motion again and I am able to see how what I had seen before again.

Its like thinking about the terryfying situations you can be in, and how they are irrelevant because its the same as now.  Would you lose a friend?  There are friends now that I dont have, what if I never had a friend? Then this dare wouldnt matter.  And I just keeping throwing stuff away like this... there is nothing I care about, I am free from desire.  Would you die a virgin?  This one is a little more difficult, but, would I be a virgin for five years? I was able to stay a virgin at least until I was 5 if I would have died at that time it would not have mattered, think of all those children that die before they get to go to disneyland, some kids never even get to go to disneyland, think of all those things that human beings are missing out on that are better than sex.   It really doesnt matter to me if I die a virgin or not. 

These are only examples of the effects of this state of mind, but what I want to do is identify the state of mind.

But there are limits: if you believe there are limits to what God can do, then there are limits to the things that you would give up... maybe.

Would you let God take that from you? Well he is already taking it (in this other way) and you are not minding, so you might as well give it up.

Would you live without that? Yes, you would, look how you have always lived without it.

As you grow older you begin to forget your past as a non-existant, so you begin to give value to corruptible objects in life, instead of the Unknown, instead of God Himself.

I keep trying to think of stuff that will piss me off so I can try again and try to observe the process again.  But the process only says what I am doing, not what is causing it.  I guess I just have to carry on until I fail again, and see if this is indefinitely repeatable.

I think its about not being concerned about things getting any worse: so what I am doing is thinking of the worst possible situation/s I can be in, and (this is the tricky part I have not solved) thinking how I would not mind them.  When we place value on something corruptible we allow ourselves to be concerned about its corruption.  The more value we place on the incorruptible aspects of life, we are not concerned about them, we feel free to do as we do and not fail.  Situations that we would consider to be “worse” are not worse, and are not symbols of death anymore, but merely symbols of change, and since there is no dying as you walk into the valley of shadow and death, you only find new life.  Since there is no way that God can die, His death only means new life in another realm.  I was showering with the lights off again, as my vision begin to accomodate the darkness so that I could see the logarithmic patterns of light, I saw a big shadow on the wall in front of me; I was frightened by it, but then I remembered how I use to be just like that shadow and did not mind, I accepted it, and feared it not, but saw it as just another one of God’s wonders.

So why dont I mind?: I think its because I think about all the aspects that I am already in that “bad” situation, and how I can still be able to enjoy, or at least move along with nothing wrong, and all is nice and dandy.

So when we are concerned about doing wrong, we become afraid.. which is why God allows us to take risks in Christ that forgives us, so we can move along in life and not worry about taking “risks” like the servant with 10 talents, he was not afraid to lose his masters money, because he knew that if he did wrong, His father would forgive him.

So does this mean that we could sin without worrying about failure?  Sin means worrying about failure, if you sin it is because you have placed value on something corruptible.  Sin means not being able to turn away from because you are concerned about its corruption.  If you sin, it is because you are already worrying about failure.

Addressing how it spreads, when nothing is wrong, you reflect that nothing is wrong and others will not be concerned about getting worse, at least about you.  But if you cause something that they consider to be bad, then they will get  concerned about you making things worse.  I dont know  if you can convince them or share with them the Truth that there is nothing to fear, I know that if you begin to agree with them and value the corruptibles that they value, then you will continue to be guilty, and  therefore, less free.  If you dont share with them, the value on the corruptible then you will have the freedom to not do it, and (if you dont value its opposite) to do it.  If you value the friendship you have with this person you will be concern about its corruption, you will do things for the friendship out of fear, not out of love.  If you are not concerned about the friendship but you still decide to do things for it, this is a manifestation of True Love.

So the nature of a threat and acceptance all depends on what a person values.  So how is value placed?

The reason why ethics is such an obscure topic in philosophy is because there are so many peoplee in sin here that will keep telling you that you are wrong.

So how can you be sure when you know something? Well you never actually know anything, but since you are not concerned about a specific outcome, and you are considering all possibilities, then you cant be wrong.