January 18, 2011

Something happened today, something I will not mention explicitly because the person will be recognized.  When you “get to know” someone, you observe how the person responds to situations and stuff.  This is a topic about hidden things and {{{*how nothing is really}}} hidden, we just ignore it and each person has their own setup of which certain things the force themselves to ignore.  But everything is truly exposed.  Just like you can see if a person will be a good husband by the way they treat their mother, or a good actor by the way they express themselves, or a good cook by the way they cook.  Sure your mind may deliberately, unfortunately, ignore aspects of people (like whether they are trustworthy or serial killers, or better put, which situations will encourage him to kill and which will allow him to cooperate), but you work with what you have, what your mind setup allows you to observe.

Extraction {{{*how nothing is really}}}: as I wrote these words in the last paragraph my mind drifted off (for that amount of time)  and thought about how, all this that I write is not Truth, but only descriptions of my personal universe.  And thus, my writings are not about finding Truth, but about allowing my mind to have access to ethereal blessings.  Allowing myself access by justifying my entry, in accord with my own standards.  This is how I figure out my mind, not Reality.  Reality remains indefinite.  I am supposedly explaining how the world works.  But all I write are just more barriers I need to break down.  And this (last sentence) too, is a one of those barriers.  And so is this last one, this one included.

As I think about these things, my mind drifts off for milliseconds at a time… you may notice this too in your trains of thought.  But most people ignore the drifts, because we are trained to use tight trains, as if thought processes were continuous.  (Another way my minds works is that when I learn of something not being invulnerable, I realize the amount of damage that can be done to it.)  Trains of thought for example: I realize it is possible to have breaks in trains, and so I conclude that there are no such things as trains.  If it is usual for a train to break, then all trains are essentially obliterated, and therefore there are no such things as trains.  So I guess this makes trains of thoughts, illusions.