Sometimes I really don’t know what I am feeling, but that question IS what I am feeling. Sometimes I don’t feel anything, but that IS what I am feeling.
What is a question?
I don’t know but, THIS is an answer.
An answer to a question, no matter the form, is that which brings the asker to a conclusion, a stop sign; it does not matter if the answer even refers to the question or not.
When I “try” to answer questions I am only making more questions, rather than letting go of them. Love, I finally made the connection between Truth and Love. Truth IS Love, it is easier to understand when you think in terms of acceptance. Truth is all that there is, to accept what there is, is to Love it, and to accept Truth. Love is the acceptance of what there Is. I feel it, {not concerned} with questions but feeling the question that does not need an answer, as it is, that is the truth, love it, accept it for what it is. And knowing that it does not lead to anything but that it IS the “thing”.
So what is this “work” that I am trying to do? This work is to make sure that I understand this, and not ask any questions about it (or anything else).
This is the path to understanding, admitting the questions as THE TRUTH, not things that lead to it. Admitting all that you feel as it is not as it “must” be. The question you feel right now, this confusion, your anger towards it, and your desire to understand it, and to be at peace, will lead you nowhere, except to itself, where you already are.
There are times when my mind makes sense of everything, in a frustrating way, times when I interpret hostility within everyone around me. You may think that I trust you, you may think I am happy with the results of our interactions; the weird thing is that I may think so too. But when I am alone at times my mind begins to race with scorching agitation, I can feel the blood boil inside my head. In fact, it happened again today. But don’t label me as crazy, the reason I do this is only because I cannot hide the lack of basis that used to support my ignorant peace of mind. I cannot create for myself a fantasy like I used to, and ignore the little flaws that came up from time to time.
Now that the heat is gone, my reason for wanting to tell you this, is not anymore to get you down to the level that I am in(so you can comprehend what kind of pain you are causing and how) but to let you know that I am not being at all unreasonable. The kind of thinking that that leads to these things, is the kind of thinking that we do every day, it is the kind of thinking that we depend on to live on this earth; I would say it is only a cultural issue, but by the concept of sin, and suffering, it seems like the whole world is involved. It is the type of thinking that we do when we understand a drama, and we adopt their emotions. I really do not feel like talking, what went through my head today; but keep in mind, that if I told you, I would convince you, and you would be as pist, and as helpless as I am. In fact, those rejects of society, that we consider them to be crazy, those pieces of worthless trash that we hate, those people that hurt others that just do not make any sense, those immoral savages that for some morbid reason decide it is ok to have sexual relations with children, those primitive idiots that are too stubborn to realize the dominant laws of life; let me tell you that if they knew the English language well enough to find the words and articulate a message to convey what was inside their head, we would agree completely with what they do.
Society only agrees with those that can master a language, whether it be music, acting, or talking, well enough to convey exactly what they were feeling. And let’s not call this “brainwash”, if this simple operation of accepting a message into the mind is called “brainwash”, then you also have to brand everything else that you have “learned” about the world, all the things that you live by, and absolutely everything that makes sense to you. The truths of the world are too Great to be beheld in one perspective.
I know that if I told you, I would be able to convince you, because when I do talk to people, I convince them; and then I try to convince them that what they are seeing, their reality, is an illusion. And for those of you that still think, “oh you are missing something, there is something that your mind is not considering”, let me tell you that whatever my mind picks up, it always finds a spot where it fits perfectly in this doomsday device that is meant to destroy my world; whatever you tell me, I can use it for evil, I can use it against myself; yes, it goes that deep. The solution is not to go into the depths and keep searching for a objects that may solve the problem, but to step out and realize what you are doing.
The truths of the world are too Great to be beheld in one perspective.
Everything that each person knows, is the truth, that’s how Great the Truth is.
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