Open Mind

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“What is Truth”. And this is why it is important to have an open mind,

Open mind = So I may be wrong... I will listen

Admit that you may be wrong and seek to learn more.

-“Carefree Life”

-Learn as much as possible, NEVER ignore, the more knowledge/information you have at your disposal (whether the info is true or false) the more truth you have and the more ready you are.

-“Accept Opinions” If you dont like something, it is because you dont understand it.

So do not even reject ideas from yourself, have consideration for any input you get from anybody, even from yourself, do not reject any ideas for the sake of another.  But be open to anything, and accept wherever you witness integrity.  But do not judge things by their cover, look into them and search the truth in them.

Addressing Conditions

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There is a pen, on the ground, what happens if I reach for it, then I clasp my fingers around it, and lift?  The result is, I pick up the pen... right?  Yes but there are things that we usually ignore to address because we consider them constant.  Within the intructions of how to pick up a pen (or anything) you can NEVER be too exact, there is always something that you need to address.  So how do you pick up a pen?  You reach down and clasp around it and lift.  The things that I forget or disregard to address are called assumptions, like: it is necessary ffor me to have a physical body, for the pen to not be imaginary, For you to reach down for it with your body and not with your mental hand. 

All infinite number of things may be addressed, even the things that seem to have no connection, or  that have no effect.  Like would it still work if the sky was pink?  This seems like it wouldnt matter, the rest of the laws of nature would be the same right?  Even then the chemical atmosphere that are needed to make the sky turn pink may affect the friction of your fingers of your physica body so that you cannot clasp hhard enough to lift your hand with the pen stuck to your fingers, so you would have to reach under it somehow. The instructions are different because you need different conditions in order to reproduce and manifest a desired effect.

Remember the Unknown, just because something works does not mean it is the only thing that works, just because something seems to work does not mean it will always work.  Because Reality is so infinite that each moment is completely different that not even a memory can reproduce the exactness of a moment will never again be manifested the same, it will ever stay in the place, and time where it happened unique frame, individual infinite. 

 So when something happens and we want to reproduce the conditions in order to manifest tthe same effect, but it will never be as exact as it was because of the time that it happened in. When I was in kindergarden, I would tell my brother that he couldnt do exactly as I did. I would do something and challenge him, he would do it. But there are details about me that he cant reproduce, he couldnt makehis face look like mineI would tell him, and to do exactly as I did he would have to be in the same spot as I was and done it at the same time I did.  So he could not reproduce my exact action.  He could only form a similar representation.  But it would never be the original action.

And possibilities Our goal is to be aware of as much as possible right?

And when we are studying how to reproduce an event we must take into consideration as much as possible.  If you got a girlfriend, and you wonder how it happened you must cnosider as much as possible, and think of all the conditions that made the event possible, and also you should wonder what the event REALLY was.  How were you feeling? (how you feel can have an afect on the outside world, the fermones you release, the emotions you express)  How was the sky? ( was it daytime night time, was it aa rainy day when no one is outside)  Where there any kittens around? (you never know you might as well write this down, its about being aware of as many things as possible, keep an open mind and accept that there may be a possibilty of how something that seems stupid and unconnected may have a very real effect).  What did you do that daY? (maybe something you did caused chain reaction) What did your friends do? What did other people do? What were they thinking? What made them think that? (it could have  been what they ate that they) and give me more and more questions because it really never ends...  what you ate the day before, (you know this can have an effect)  be aware, and dont ignore it, but  have an open mind and try to figure out ways that anything can be true, and of how these conditions bring about such result) Always, always, there is always unknown an pray, pray to Unknown about these things, for blessings, because he knows all.

And when you have conditions, you should also look at and exercise looking at possibilities.

What if:

Or

What would be the result of such and such? (such question type would also include the initial conditions that you have figured out yourself... What if the sky is blue, it is daytime, I am physical, the pen is physical, [all these conditions you should be aware of as you expect something to result from it, if you fail to address all the conditions then there will certainly be a possibility of getting your prediction wrong, and since you “cannot” behold all possible conditions in existence that would result in an event then you always have the possibility of having a wrong prediction.])  what if: (all the conditions you can address from an observed result), then it should result in what you are observing.. right?... wrong! Because there is still Unknown)

September 11, 2009

Music class again, a girl sits beside me, we both got here early this time, only me and her, “were here early”, she said, as she noticed we weer the only ones in class.  There was no one else so I talked, I asked her if she knew how the quiz was going to be like, she told me,her voice was deep type, she gave off a psychotic look, like the kind that makes you think of someone insane. I asked her if she was a music major, she said maybe. Usually, undecided students are first or second year, I asked her what year she was, sophomore, but she took a year off.  She  said maybe she wanted  to major in studio art, drawing charcoal etc.   I thought I shouldnt mind the look she gave off, its the same look I would give too a stranger if I was at a place like whitman,  She wrote a name, big letters in her notebook, Joe Wheeler, I wanted to ask her about it, she probably wanted me to notice it. She draws, flowers and an elephant, which I expect to forget.  I think she is beautiful.  I have always done this since I was in preschool, since I remember, I just like girls.

I remember I had a conversation with Crystal about being at whitman, I told her that I wasnt where I wanted to be, I told her that I wanted to get away, and now in another state I  wasnt satisfied, even though I was somewhere else in the eyes of others, to me I was still “here”.  And how could I get out of “here”? I would have to get out of myself, out of my mind? I would have to be somewhere that I am not.  I thought about it, and realized I was always where I was, and where I wanted to go, was somewhere I wasnt.  After a while, I learned to appreciate things in such this way.  I thought of it as all being in my head. I hhad to give myself impressions to make myself feel as if I was somewhere else, I had to look at myself with the eyes of me not here, then I would feel like if I  was somewhere where I wasnt.  Then after I had the problem with whitman college and after all the emotion, I realized that this was just what I wanted, somewhere where I would have problems, somewhere different, this is what I was after something new, something to learn, and this is why I want to stay at whitman, because its just what I wanted, God help me.  Now today I realize I dont just admit the general but I see witth more detail that I am indeed somewhere else, after I have also felt good about being around people that dont want me around, even after this I see something new to appreciate, that back then, when I wished to be somewhere else and did not feel somewhere else, even though it felt like I would be lying to myself to tell me that I have finally escaped, I realize now that I would feel escaped only after I admitted the truth to myself; just what I thought would be a lie.

September 10, 2009

I am in music history class, there is a girl sitting at my right, she has short black hair, eye shadow, and smells like spearmint, she is chewing gum today, I wonder of she is planning to kiss me.  Brown eyes, I like to look at her.  Chipped nail polish on her fingernails,  black, with her purple lead pencil she writes a name, “Eliza” ... “Music”? “History”... Then she writes, Eliza Young. When I got back to my room I looked her up, she lives on my flor. Eeeeeeeeee!!!

About 2 days before yesterady, I was in my philosophy class andv as I walked from it (I sent a txt message to my ex about this) I wnodered about those feeling I ever had, that made me go crazy, those thoughts, I realized that, it was things that I shold be doing, worlds I should be expressing with my being. Yesterday in class Proff Tom Davis mentioned the emotions one has when they are babies that they dont have the words to express, it is a really painful experience so they forget. I told him that it was not the case with me, I had memories from like 1 or 2 years old, and I can remember recognizing the emotion even though I didnt really know how to say it.   And so he must have been talking about the feelings I get when I go crazy, but I go crazy, not because I cant express it, but because I feel a strong “duty” to express it, and I am not doing it.

There is this girl with a nose ring, in my philosophy 201 class, its 2:38, Im not sure of her name, she has a green shirt religious “coexist” and drinks water out of a blue crayon, the way she looks at me,  it makes me wonder, the look she gives, its kind of sexual, well thats howit makes me feel, I wonder I knew what her mind was like.  I used to catch her looking at me, I wonder what it means, she stares at me as much as I stare at her, we take turns though, I wish I knew what to do to make it so she doesnt get tired of looking at me.. how would I control this part? Or how could I move forward.  What do I do?  All I can do or should do is be myself, display myself, show bits of who I am.  And i should be aware  of this, even when I think no one is watching, this makes another rule that in all times, I live, I live by making others aware of my consciousness, or express myself and what is insiide me, my truth, my thoughts, who I am, display and not hde, at all times/

Senses

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Make people aware of their senses, When you awake their senses, and some, they should pay attention to those senses, and should be more aware of alot of things.  Play with their senses, so that they realize and remember that they have them.

Use all senses you can find.

Smell:

Touch:

·         Pain

·         Pleasure

·         Pressure

·         Strange

When you stimulate a sense, you either accept or reject it, strong touch senses are usually rejected and seen as pain, but if you accept it, you will realize that it is only a strong stimulation, to awaken your senses.  If you reject it, you are rejecting your awakening, you are rejecting awareness and you are rejecting life,  when you reject what makes you feel as much as we reject life when we are in pain, we dont want to live, we cowar away from living, from feeling.

Sight:

Taste:

Sound:

Time:

Emotions:

What if/External World

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Now there is external world, how does one separate the external world from itself?  Its those things I feel that are in me, become part of my mind, those things that I am not aware of, the are extrenal, independent of my mind.  Now in a dream, thoses things that I am not aware about do not even exist. In  the waking life, those things that I am not aware about are still there. Aah thats because there are other minds that hold it in manifestation. So once again the definition of the external world is that which there are minds of the same level power and authority as yours.  What if there was only on person alive in the world, would the laws of nature be only according to him?  So if he lost his watch, and found it in his pocket, he would make it a law of nature, that everytime, he loses his watch, all he has to do is look in his pocket, and everytime he lost it, he would find it there, or in the stream.

Now what are worms that keep their world stable, can we say that they have minds, to affect the underground.  If something as dead as worms can also hold manifestations of the world what about rocks? Or is the whole world only, in God’s hands?

What if your mind is the only one that affects the world, making the world non external, but internal..  But what happens is that since there are natural manifestations of beings as yourself, you automatically imply that they have minds as your own, and you expect them to do things, as you would. It is like they are vessels with which you spread your mind to hold the rest of the world constant as manifestation, and then you create a god.

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September 1, 2009

So yea the answer to that is that I have a chance to finally be alive and I should take advantage of it as much as I can.  Give me life, and I will kill it, I will wear it out, until its unrecognizable.

Anyways, I am dissappointed to find out that people dont think, most people dont think, well maybe its a possibility.  I think, but people typically dont think; now it sounds like I have pride, calling myself smarter than everyone else, I am not saying this; let me give you an example for what I mean when I say, “people dont think, but I do.”  People, dont typically think, “hey the waters cold, it must be because I am sad” no people dont think that, and this is disappointing to find out because I leave signs around, you know, I put a green mark on the sidewalk so people will think, “hmm, maybe Jimmy needs a girlfriend” but no, that doesnt happen.  I think, but they dont. I make connections with things that dont seem related just for the possibility and what not.  Now they are not all as retarded as the examples I just gave, but its just to show, that there is type of stuff that people dont think about.  Now since people think less than anticipated I have to place more obvious signs like a poster on their door that says, “Jimmy NEEDS A GIRLFRIEND” maybe if it is that obvious the thought may cross their mind, “hmm, maybe Jimmy needs a girlfriend”.  Btw, its just an example, I am actually trying to stay single these days.  not that I cant use a girlfriend...