Prayers

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_On a night at the Lodge at Pine Springs Ranch, I walked in search for one of God’s wonders I spoke to God in prayer, as I waited to see yet another shooting star.  Confused about what Word was, should I believe the Bible and only the Bible, arranged by Constantine the founder of paganic christianism.

“Tell me God!!! Should I eat and consume these Words!!!?? Should I live by, should I believe this so-called... (and instead of saying, I was stopped by the sight of a shooting star, as I felt it underline the word that was in my mind and not yet out of my lips... Truth)”

_ So I was praying once and I told God “wow God, you are unbelievable!” and then he says... get this he says, “well that explains why so many people have stopped believing in me.”

_I had just watched the movie “American Me” and I noticed that I was beginning to act like the people in the movie, taking their gestures, their mentality, their spirit.  “Oh God no!!! Tell me why I shouldnt feel this way God, tell me why the lives of these people are a unacceptable to you!!”  They act this sort of way, Santana does not even know how to dance or make love, he does not even do drugs he lived his life making “respect” his only god;  his goal in life was to gain respect and to be honored and feared.  He knew no other life, he did not wonder of any other aspect.  He did not wonder about life, he did not even know he was alive, he was as alive as a rock!!! (well you are gonna have to check on rock morality to see if thats a good put-down). They lived to gain respect and to be known, oh my God would Jesus go after such goals?!?!  They could have really learned something from Jesus, they would accepted Jesus with no problem!!! Would they even question Jesus’s actions like scholars do? NO! Of course they wouldnt! Seeing how they like to feel like they belong and how easily they are influenced by others, all they need, to believe, is some encouragement and affirmation from enough people.  Wow, this is really a place where the gospel would have full effect!! Where people are focused on other gods and they are unreflective, they wouldnt even think about it, they would just accept it since everybody else is doing it.  This reminds me of “zeitgeist” saying that christianity was for the poor, to control them and keep them in their place, it seemed that way when thinking about it, i dont know how it would have worked but just the fact that they would accept it and respect it and look up to it without reflection.  “So where am I then. Is Jesus only a tool to control the poor?  Well Jesus may be but my God is not.  And I am sorry God if it sounds like I am denying your Son, but I must wonder: what would I choose if it turned out that to find the Eternal the Greatest God, I had to deny...” (then God says: “Me”).  I am left astonished at the thought, what had God just told me?  That the Highest God is Higher than who I was praying to?....(awww).  Oh God too Great to hold in my mind, a God Higher than you? I felt to ignore the “God” I was praying to, and focus on this even Higher God, but then I realized that the True God would be even Higher, I writhed at the thought, “where are you Lord? How High are You? I am left less than life when I think of your Greatness,  How dare me open my lips to You! How dare me complain to You! How dare me to think that anything in my life matters! When I wonder your Greatness, I am as a grain of sand, an inanimate puppet, I SHOULD NOT EVEN BE ALIVE!!! So why do you have me here Lord? Where am I and what am I worth? You have given a body, you have given me abilities, WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH ALL OF THIS, WHEN I AM NOT EVEN ALIVE!?!?!”  I felt to not move, in front of such a Great thought, and it was not even His Greatest, I felt like my life was worth death, my consciousness was as good as a calculator’s, I am dead, my spirit is worth nothing to me since it is not even mine.

There are people who wonder, and people who dont.  I had this aspect with God where I was pointless and then He let me know of my worth, “I am a creation of the Lord now live and do His will” (another aspect).  So I am able to travel from world to worlds within God?  But what about those worlds without wondering of God?  Are they not seperate aspects and therefore worthy of being experienced, studied?

Subject Matter (Knowledge)

File Location: My Words/Completion (What we know)/Subject Matter (knowledge)

To begin this subject I am going to start off with pointing out the problems in science and the pomp of human minds when it comes to, discovering and knowing the world.  It is true we are able to predict certain things and its true that, for the most part and only for the most part, it comes out true.  Scientific results are existant, there is no denying it, but the results of scientific experiments are only accepted because of the tendencies of the physical world; tendencies are invalid support when trying to justify something logically.  And even if it was true that science had Eternal incorruptible results and predictions, still what do we really know about the world?  Does  being able to predict certain things make us dignified of worship? Does this mean that we understand how the world works, what it is made of? And does this say that we can control the world , our lives and our destiny? Does this make us gods?  Materialist atheist scientist seem to think so since they have developed the pride to say that humans will inevitably know everything at some point in the life of humanity, that it is a sure proven Truth that there is no God.  How can people believe that the human mind can understand the wonderous utter infinity of Reality?   Saying that a human mind understands reality would be like saying that a rock understands the complete complexities of consciousness.  Atheism developed from “logic” and “science” is as much a scam as christianity is, as portrayed in “Zeitgeist”.

The way that we live everyday life, does not show that we know anything about reality, but only shows that we have fooled ourselves to think that the world is real and consistent .  Of course the world that is observed seems to be real and consistent, but its only accord to human minds and senses.  I am proclaiming that we only know what is given to us, only what is fed to us by our senses; but what our senses tell us has nothing to do with reality and the world.  What we live by is only hope that things exist, and we are in denial to admit that there is no way to prove that the laws of nature are eternally constant or that what we touch is actually solid, or that what we remember has actually happened, there is no way to prove that what we sense is the only things that exist!!!  Science is based on assumptions from the beginning, assumptions that scientist themselves have invalidly, without logic, accepted as Truth.  Who knows what the world really is, we are not alive enough to know.  When we truly use truth for truth, we realize that we live in an unknown world.  Nobody knows where we live or where we are.  Nobody knows the properties of the unknown, and the unknown is now, the unknown is here the unknown is with us.  Knowledge is not even a property of human lives; what is a property of human lives is pretending that knowledge is a property of human lives; delusion and unjustified belief.  We do not deserve to live, we do not deserve to say, do not say even a word, do not even look, because your thoughts are a disgrace to Truth, you lie by thinking, and then you lie by saying that your lies are truth, and even worse; you lie by saying that your lies are Truth.  But how can I say that we do not know anything, that knowledge for human beings does not exist.  The truth is that I know that we know nothing, but the truth is that I do not know, but even then, the Truth is... (I can’t say, my mind is unworthy to declare) the Truth is...

                Like Des Cartes I want to start of with foundational beliefs and work towards the external world from there, but unlike epistemology, which goal is to discover what we know as an end, and we MUST know it, I am going to accept those things that we may never know, and point out those things that, human beings may consider true, from those things that human beings may asume in real life to be able to live normally, and such things that we have good reasons to assume but that we must declare that at anytime and any idea, we should give them up.  I also want to clarify the reasons why certain things are morally acceptable to assume, for the sake of humanity and life.

                Why we believe.

                What we know.

                What we should look for.

                 The Truth.

                The lies.

                Assumptions, that make our universe.

Spirits

File Location: My Words/God/Spirits

Witchcraft, Spirits, ghosts, visions, acts of God, these things that are not experimented by science, and are said and believed to not exist.

Some say it may just be a force, or a demonstration of how far the power of suggestions can go.  But seriously, the results of these things are unpredictable and they even seem to be unaffected by our perspectives; like if they have a mind of their own.  AMAZING!!  Could it be that the power of suggestion can bring in NEW knowledge into your head (as so it happens when getting messages from spirits).

I understand that in some cultures that it is believed for a number to be bad luck, statistically, there are more deaths on the day matching that number than any other day (i.e. there are more deaths in America on Friday the 13 than any other day.)  These I understand to be power of suggestion.  Since I believe that the deaths happen because they expect it to happen, so they bring it upon themselves.  But new information is different.

There is something bugging my mind that I must bring out, maybe it could be that the power of suggestion brings out “new” information, but it is only thought too be new.  The way this happens is that, the subconscious mind stores information but does not consciously sort it out.  It is possible that you figure out many truths about your everyday life if you only knew how to figure it.  Once you “summon a spirit” to provide you with “new information” by the power of suggestion you come to understand the world in this certain regard.  And as reported, by the power of suggestion, everyone hears the same message, physically, to explain the “new information” into their minds. (highly unlikely if you ask me.

And the way the exmples of how God works also tell me of a higher force, other than plain suggestion.  Peradventure, you are participating in a competition, the power of suggestion will have it that if you believe you are going to lose you will lose, and if you believe you will win, then you will most likely win.  (This is disregarding those other situations where blindess of predetermined results come into play, which in itself is a whole different concept.)  But the way God has worked in lives it is apparent that the result does NOT depend on the “suggestion” of the individual.  There are instances where God promises a curse, and it does not matter how must one ignores it it still happens.  Where does this power come from? The power for a message to have so much influence on reality, a simple message can change reality no matter what we do or even when no one hears the message, if it is said it is done, disregarding the “suggestion” of the individual.  Or an instance where God blesses, and no matter how much one feels cursed and defiled, the blessing still come,  the results of these blessings are in no accord to the perspective of the individual, like if there was a separate force that had a mind of its own, like if a third consciousness was involved in the ordeal between you and your “suggestion” that causes you to believe in God or not (it does not matter if you believe in God or not, blessings and curses still come about, as detailed [as reported])