Open Mind -Carefree

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Anger happens because situations in the real world are not matching with what you had in mind, or with what you had planned.  You were wrong.

So, Consider the possibilities, keep and hold an open mind with all and every kind of possibility, even if the possibility seems unprobable or just silly.  Deliberate a plan just in case these things would happen; do this before hand.

For example, me writinng these things down:

Do you know what I had to go through?  I took a risk, I had trouble bringing myself to do this because I was not sure how it was all going to turn out.  I mean, these are great ideas, pretty useful so I say, but what if I die, or everything is destroyed and I have to start all over again or it turns out that, I had been wasting my time.  These are possibilities that one must consider, but if people actually ask themselves this and dwell on it they may end up like Joe here: “gah we are all gonna die anyways, so dont even try”

I took a risk, I took this risk.  I took the time to figure this out and how to organize everything even though the possibility existed that it could all be destroyed, gone, without a trace.

I considered, do I really want to gamble this?

Every decision you make is a gamble if you havent noticed, so when you something bad happens dont be surprised... in a world like this, you are always wrong.

-SO how do you deal with this?

Rule: YOU MUST NOT LIE TO YOURSELF!!!

Every time you wake up, consider these:  (insert imagination here)

that you may die today, that you may kill today, you may hate today

and you must not lie to yourself,

because when you lie to yourself about Life, then Life proves you wrong, you end up wondering how things are possible in Life... well WAKE UP, here is a Reality check for you, IT IS POSSIBLE! Obviously!

Admit it, it is possible... dont lie to yourself... (sink in)

-so you say, I cant do that, if I dont lie to myself I wont even be able to get out of bed.  I mean seriously if you try to consider all possibilities in Life you’ll be paralyzed.

And thats the point, that if you take Life for what it is (if you take Truth for Truth)... would you still want to live? Or are you afraid of what Life may do to you?  If the answer is “no I dont want to live”, then you dont belong here, at least not on Earth in this world of sin and tragedy.  But if you rise up with courage, to confront life face-to-Face, and tell it, “I know not, I give up, but I am willing to stand or lie through whatever you may put me through, because I love Life and I want to see, do with me what you will” if you are willing to go through anything Life puts you through, then you deserve to Live.  Read “Life.Death” to get an idea what Life is all about.

“Morality” Romans 12:14

Open Mind-Accept Opinions

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(My point of view on being judgemental::: *if you dont like it, it is because you dont understand it)

By asking why and how towards the opinions of others, we come to realize that people are not just annoying and stupid.  We can come to realize that what other people believe, no matter how outrageous the belief, there is a way to understand it.

These people believe what they believe for a reason, why do they believe these things, why would they have such “stupid” beliefs.

As a person with an open mind, I would encourage one to find out on their own.  Go to their world and see what it is like, see if there is anything you can do about it, maybe you can fix it, or at least find the problem in/with their system; or maybe, the problem is within yourself... whatever the case, figuring it out can only help.

They believe what they believe and do what they do for a reason... what is this reason?

Why one would not do this?--- What about Truth? What about God? Shouldn’t we be stubborn with Truth? Should not we close our minds to lies?

Truth is Truth, Truth will be Truth no matter what we think, Truth does not need us to believe in it, if Truth is God and God is Powerful, then we can be sure that the Truth that we search for will guide us towards Truth. May Truth be with us, may Truth guide us, but we must pray to Truth if we really want to know the Truth.

Accept Opinions-Search for Truth.God vs Truth

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What about Truth? What about God? Shouldn’t we be stubborn with Truth? Should not we close our minds to lies?

Truth is Truth, Truth will be Truth no matter what we think, Truth does not need us to believe in it, if Truth is God and God is Powerful, then we can be sure that the Truth that we search for will guide us towards Truth. May Truth be with us, may Truth guide us, but we must pray to Truth if we really want to know the Truth.

And once again, one should not be afraid when God himself says Malachi 3:10 “put me to the test”... If God is really True than there should be no problem with what you are doing if what you are doing is looking for Truth, and making sure that what you believe, is really the Truth; If God is Truth, God would want you to do this, to make sure that you are not fooled by anyone else, if God is Truth, God would want you to test His legitimacy, because in while you look for Truth, He is the only thing you will ever find.

May 28, 2009

I think I am starting to get back the spirit I had lost 4 years ago.  Why did I lose it? Was it because of my ex? Why? Its like a curse I had from doing witchcraft (which is how I got my ex to be my girlfriend) is it over now? No this spirit left me because something was left unaccomplished, something that my spirit wasnt able to live with, so it left me; something it felt that it had to solve, but it couldnt, or I gave up on it, so it left me.  Whatever it was, the spirit left, and that says something about the spirit; its not invincible, it cant stand being around things it cannot change, it cannot handle being wrong, it cannot handle the seeming injustices of Life, therefore it is definite... But its still pretty useful.  If I want this spirit back, I must continue where it left off, and I must fix the problem that it couldnt just ignore.  The choice was to give the matter some time, so my spirit left, it became dormant for years, it waited by leaving me, because it couldnt stand being here and not doing anything about the situation.  But now, it has awaken within me, and it wants to fix what “needed” time (huh, I dont believe it anymore).  Strange the emotions, nostalgic, the spirit reminds me of the past I had, who I was, what I believed; I am back.  This spirit that left its mark in my life, I have been following its laws in auto-pilot, but it wasnt me; I practiced what I learned from it, but I only knew the rules by repetition, not by reflection or deep consideration.  Now I am awake, and I will go back and do some deeds!

Spirit: It was something I left out of place something unagreeable with my world.

Explains the heartbreak after I broke up with her

So what is the ultimate problem? What caused the problem that frightened my spirit away? Why would such a situation cause it to leave? What was in the situation? What did it mean for the spirit? My problem is that the people I slutted around with, in the end, turned out to be these people that close-mindedly give up their will to their partner, or, in other words, consumer culture.  But why would I regret doing something like this? Why would I regret going out with someone when my morality says to help out those in need of intimacy?  Am I saying that I will accept those who need intimacy only if they are not from this culture? This cannot be the case, it would make your consideration, your love for humanity conditional.

A1 -So if this is the case, you are still set out to learn this one thing, to accept even those in the consumer culture.

But it IS true that I would offer my help to anybody that needs it, I am making no exception, the problem I have is that I am giving my help to those that DONT need it.  They are not interested in my intimacy.  They may think they need it but they really dont, so this is why I feel guilty.   

-and you would not go out with someone that thinks they want your intimacy?

-well I would, but only to show them that they dont really want it. This is where I failed.

-So what if you did convince them that they did not really love you and that their desire for you was only superficial.

- If I did end up convincing them then I would  have accepted carrying along with it, as long as we knew those terms.

- so your sin was not that you carried along with shallow careless intimacy

*January 1, 2010 (When people are “in love” they feel it, they feel that they are able to cope with everything that the world may bring them.  But their love is conditional, those that “think” they need my intimacy are everyone who considers themselves in need of my intimacy and do not Love Unconditionally; because they can end up hating me for one reason or another, all I have to do is find their fears, that they are not willing to give up for me.  But if its all for me, then they may fear losing me.  So no matter who is interested, I would be able to show them that they are really not.  My ideal partner would be one who,  by themselves looked forward to getting rid of their rejectful nature, for the sake of itself, not for me, but for Life itself, for God.  This would be that they are actually attempting to Love unconditionally, this would mean that they are honestly interesed, in accepting me wholly, it would mean that they actually want my intimacy; one can only Love another, if they Love God.

A2 -my sin was that I did not admit, realize, recognize, I did not acknowledge the fact that what I was carrying out was shallow careless intimacy.   And so I failed to acknowledge and preach the truth about their love, now I am “not allowed” to talk to them, and I feel there is something missing, this is what I missed.

A1 & A2 are in process...

April 20, 2009

I think everybody is to blame for not speaking up against me, they never tried to correct me.

I act out my dissappoinntment and expect nothing from them, as they did nothing in the first case, just stay away freaks of nature, grow some balls, and get some social skills, learn different cultures and learn to accept others for who they are, stop getting so butt hurt for no reason, and if you do get butt hurt then DO something about it.  I will now do nothing because thats how things seem to work around here, right? Just stay quiet, dont confront, just report it, but dont try to fix it yourself.  You have a problem? Just report it and give off mean looks to those who have offended you, even if they are unaware of it, it isnt your job to tell them that you have a problem with their behavior, just report it.

Our choice of Goodness

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And now I may hold that I dont know the difference between good and bad, that the sensations that my body gives me, are just those, but how do I know which sensations and effects to reject, to not desire.  God made us, sin exists, does God not know sin? God knows sin, sin is a reality, but i sin part of reality? Why then do we reject it, it is only in OUR nature, but thi does not mean that sin is evil.  Everything that is and that there is, is our world.  God offers us what we want, only one domain of the infinite of eternal gifts, we only want one, which is eternal life and goodness.  But I believe God reaches beyond these things, and can offer more than what we know, but it is not what we want.

God the Locked

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God the Locked!!  Those who search for Truth but find damnation.  Those who search for Infinity but find Nothingness.  God has kept them away, the Great God has Locked them away with a Great Lock, from his presence, from knowledge of him, from Enlightnement.

Then God laughs!

Then there are those who claim to know, they claim to know what he is.  But really its nothing, anything they claim can be marked as false, anything they grasp is deniable.  God remains the unknown, is He good? Is He evil? I pray to Him.  Him that is without an alias, without a face, without an account, remains alone; the Mysterious, He is  locked away, some eternal haven is the unknown.